Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Monday, December 12, 2011

Oh my first world problems...

Finals start tomorrow...

Tomorrow I have Chemistry Final Part One (that's right, my Chemistry Final is in TWO parts) and Chemistry Lab Final/Test and for some reason I just can't seem to focus on studying for either one of them. I know, that's really bad... I'm quite worried about it too.. Yet no matter how hard I try to buckle down I just can't seem to do it. It's aggravating to say the least. I'm sure once tomorrow ends, and I have Tuesday to study for Calculus, Chemistry Part Two, AND Biology then I'll be able to focus.. At least for the day. Just three more days. It's been tough, I've still got a ton of Calculus work I need to finish.. Once finals are over I'll have till the 20th to get them done. I keep telling myself I don't think I'll have any problem getting them done, yet for some reason I continue to drag my feet on them. I'm pretty sure I'm getting burned out, but I just need to stick it out a little bit longer. Just a little bit.

I'm not going to lie, I haven't been all too focused and haven't really forced myself to be either. I think with all that's been going on I just haven't wanted to focus on anything really.. Or just that there's so much I can't focus on any one thing. With finals coming up, I can't focus on getting the calculus work done, but with the calculus work that needs to be done I can't focus on studying for finals. It's like.. a double edged sword.

I guess I don't really have much to talk about.. I'm just having trouble focusing.. I think it's because I'm not all that worried about chemistry or chemistry lab.. I KNOW I can't get an A in Chemistry, and I'm rather certain with all my hard work I'll get an A in Lab... So that's practically a surefire A and B grade. Maybe that's why it's so hard to focus on them, because I'm pretty sure I already know what grade I'm going to get? I guess my real focus needs to be Calculus.. If I can get an A on my final, I'll get an A in the class, it's highly unlikely.. Especially since I missed all of last week. But I have tomorrow morning (or actually technically later this morning) to study for it. Funny enough, I only need a 50% on the final to get a B in the class. This is all of course assuming I do ALL of the homework that's due at the end of the semester (the 20th). I have about 220 calculus problems left. Granted, whenever I'm doing calculus I've also been watching Buffy... If I JUST did calculus and didn't watch TV while doing the work I'd probably get the problems done a LOT faster. Again, focus issues.... So in that sense.. It seems pretty easy for me to get a B in Calculus...

I'm having "First World" problems I guess, lol. I'm so sure I'm going to do well in all my classes ( because unless I completely BOMB my finals I'll do well) I can't bring myself to focus on studying for them. I know what a lot of people are probably thinking, (well, those of you who read my blog, haha), "Seriously? You're bitching because you're doing well in school?" I'm not really bitching, haha, so much as I'm just annoyed that I can't get myself to focus. I like to do great, not 'good' and at this rate, I'm doing 'good'. Not that 'good' is 'bad', it's just not 'great'. Is it so wrong to strive to achieve greatness? It's hard to strive for greatness when you're unmotivated >/

And I know I have a lot more pressing matters to focus on. Like moving, finding a place to live, etc etc, but none of those are on my mind at the moment.. They'll probably become more precedent when I get closer to moving time (January/February). Till then it's out of sight, out of mind.

December will be full of going through old stuff and selling it. Which reminds me, I need to send my friend a text with what manga I have that she's interested in buying....

Well! Since I don't have anything actually useful to write, and I'm just bitching about my first world problems about how I'm doing well in college but not as well as I WANT to be doing, I guess I should shut up and stop sounding like such a douche. Don't worry, I have plenty of legitimate issues going on for me to complain about, but for some reason I'm not actually in the mood to complain about anything...

In fact, despite having not studied for finals at all and stuff... I'm in a pretty good mood. Funny how life is like that sometimes.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Time to write to try to make myself sleepy.

So.... I know I totally bombed at least one test... But then again, I did great on another so... I guess it evens out? I did the math and even if I get a 50% on my final in calculus I'll get a B so I guess there's not much to worry when it comes to that class, as long as I do all my homework and get 100% on them, which is easy, just time consuming.  So it's 10:30 at night, not late.. But I'd like to go to bed early and maybe get up early to do some extra homework. If I want to get all of my calculus homework done in seven days, I have to do about 47 calculus problems a day. It's not all due in seven days, but I'd like to get it done by then. I just need to make sure I break those 47 problems throughout the day, if I try to do them all at once everyday I'll burn myself out. Few problems here, few problems there, do some other studying. I have nothing going on since I'm still recovering from surgery (no work) so I have no excuse to not be studying a LOT. And with finals coming up in two weeks, I SHOULD be studying a LOT, so I'm going to dammit!

Now that I've got that out of the way... I'm pretty sure I'll finish this semester with a 3.25 of a 3.5 GPA. The 3.5 is POSSIBLE, but VERY VERY VERY unlikely.. I have to do EXCEPTIONALLY WELL on my chemistry final to manage a high B so my teacher will curve me up to an A. That'll get me my second A for the semester and bring my GPA to a 3.5. Good luck to me!

Moving on... Today I got back from a little day vacation with Jeremiah to Barona. It was nice. We went gambling on the casino's dime and went home with $600. We started with $100 in comp cash to Jeremiah, so the money was all his; but he gave me $100 of the winnings when we left since I gambled with it too and helped with that $600 he walked out with. That and he owed me fifty bucks. Heh. Anyway, we went the day before, got a comped hotel room, comped buffet dinner, comped gambling money. The only thing either of us spent money on was gas to get there and back; and considering how much we went home with, I'm not complaining.

So, I'm listening to this video on youtube by the Piano Guys, they're quite amazing. I'm currently listening to their version of "Bring him Home" from Les Misérables... It's beautiful.

Onward.. I guess I don't really have much to talk about... While we were on our little day vacation I must have eaten something I shouldn't have because my stomach started hurting and I didn't feel well for a few hours, which made me feel even worse that my poor mood was bringing Jeremiah down... I really really hate it when something beyond my control happens, but it doesn't just effect me negatively, but in turn effects Jeremiah. I just end up feeling worse because of the guilt.

Once the semester's over, I'm debating what I want to do.. I'm pretty sure I'm going to try to pick up a second job that I can work in the evenings, so long as it doesn't effect my availability of my primary animal care job. Maybe I can get a second animal care job for the evenings, that will be difficult, but it's not impossible. Maybe even just a job delivering pizzas, if I went with that, I could listen to books on tape in my car, I just wonder if the pay will be worth the wear and tear on my car...

I keep getting distracted from writing, and now it's 11:15 at night. I went off onto craigslist and started looking up available night jobs. I'll probably start donating blood and stuff too, because you get paid like.. 20 bucks each time you do it. You can donate plasma twice in seven days, but blood only once every 8 weeks.. Either way, that's an extra 40 bucks a week I could be making just from plasma, if I did it twice a week every week. That's 160 bucks a month of extra money. I wonder if you have to report that money on taxes, or if it's over the counter... Hmm.. Either way, my focus for the next month (once class ends) is to make as much money as I can. Gonna be having a garage sale soon too.

It's funny, my blog is called "Zombies, dogs, and stuff" and I haven't talked about zombies or dogs really.. Heh... Well, tomorrow is pictures with santa for the dogs! We'll have pics of Athena and Koi with santa! :D This isn't really working for trying to make myself sleepy.. At all.... Gah! That's frustrating! Ok ok so what's on my mind.. Money.. I need to make more of it. Before that, study for finals. Pretty straight forward December if you ask me. I hate being motivate to do one thing, and it's the second step of the plan. I'm motivated to make money NOW but I have to finish out the semester FIRST. Blah. Isn't it frustrating how motivation work that way? It's funny, despite how much I love video games, I haven't played any in months. I played a LITTLE of Skyrim and less of Dead Island, which sucks, I love achievement hunting and life's been WAY too busy for it. At least I can prioritize my school over my games, hahaha.

Either way... I'm going to TRY to get some sleep now... Goodnight!